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Everyone has a death that fucked them up real good. Everything was going great – life was happening and all things good were happening too – and then boom,<\/em><\/strong>\u00a0out of nowhere, someone in your life is taken from you. It is\u00a0there, at that moment, you can pinpoint when\u00a0things started going all wrong for you. It is the moment you keep reverting to when you are numb and want to feel something, or it is that moment that\u00a0you feel the entire pain of the universe and wish it would just stop – the universe and\/or the pain.<\/p>\n Each of us\u00a0could blame a death for why we are messed up. We carry that person’s death with us for the rest of our lives. \u00a0The death never gets easier to accept and the heartache that comes with it never really disappears; it only gets\u00a0interrupted by other distracting moments until our thoughts accidentally wander\u00a0back to it again.<\/p>\n We feel the guilt. Why wasn’t I nicer to the deceased? Why wasn’t that person nicer to me? Why was this loved one\u00a0taken from us? I could have done more to prevent the death. It’s all my fault. Yep, death has a way of ruining the rest of our lives.<\/p>\n The only reason people say “time heals all wounds” is because of the\u00a0“inbox theory.” \u00a0Eventually the rest of the crap you’ve be ignoring while you’ve been contemplating your loss, piles up, waiting for you, and you’re forced to deal with these backlog of thoughts. At this point you\u00a0are willing to accept all\u00a0other introspections, so as to avoid all ponderings\u00a0about your loss. But your mind always travels back to that missing soul. There is always a trigger that brings you back to that death; but nothing brings your beloved\u00a0back or ever will. And that’s what’s fucked up about it.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Everyone has a death that fucked them up real good. Everything was going great – life was happening and all things good were happening too – and then boom,\u00a0out of nowhere, someone in your life is taken from you. It is\u00a0there, at that moment, you can pinpoint when\u00a0things started going all wrong for you. It … Continue reading “Commute”<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-33","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/illiteratures.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/33","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/illiteratures.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/illiteratures.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/illiteratures.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/illiteratures.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=33"}],"version-history":[{"count":11,"href":"https:\/\/illiteratures.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/33\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":153,"href":"https:\/\/illiteratures.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/33\/revisions\/153"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/illiteratures.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=33"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/illiteratures.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=33"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/illiteratures.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=33"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}